There are several restoration threads here on
YF as well as two I remember about such a transport. Search 'Roamers' and read and read and read before you do this. I'm reminded of a boat I once looked at that was billed as "divorce causes sale" to which my wife said " Yeah, and boat caused divorce". Some people insist on throwing good money after bad and putting their lives on hold to resurect a dead old lady. Obsession, but that's what boating is all about. Just get very educated before taking the plunge. Punishing yourself is fine as long as you understand and accept it from the start.
P.S. Make sure you're not giving your family something to remind you of til your dying day.